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Welcome to the twentieth day of the National health Blog Post Month Challenge hosted by WEGO Health.  Every day during the month of November I will be writing a new blog post related to health and living with a chronic illness based on given prompts provided by WEGO Health.

Today’s prompt reads:

I Still Remember…Free write a post that starts with this line and describe an unforgettable moment in your health journey (for example; a cancer free diagnosis, etc)

I still remember the first dizzy spell that I experienced when I was eight years old.  Although my Mum suspects I may have experienced dizzy spells when I was really young, however the one that I experienced when I was eight, is the one that I really remember experiencing, and started my long journey living with dizziness.

It was December, and my parents and I were browsing a local DIY store in search of new wallpaper for the living room.  I remember the bright, twinkling lights from the Christmas decorations that were in-store, excited for the upcoming holidays.  We were browsing the aisles when out of nowhere, the dizziness came on out of the blue.  It felt as if I were moving in a room that was still and silent, even though I was actually standing still.  I remember being so afraid of falling, that I suddenly grabbed my Mum’s hand and squeezed so tightly as if it were the only thing that was going to stop me from floating away from my parents.  The increased  sensations of the weakness and trembling in my legs; worried that they were going to collapse.   I was so frightened; unaware of what was happening to me and unable to adequately describe the sensations or the experience of what was happening to me. I felt sick and very warm, and just felt an urge to escape the store and go back to the comfort and security of home.

I can still remember going back to the car, sitting down, but still feeling incredibly dizzy, which continued for some time after leaving the large store.  I thought how scary the whole experience was and that i wished so desperately for it to never happen again.  But as we all know, sadly it was not to be the last dizzy spell that I would experience; instead it would be the first of so many.  Dizzy spells that would not only increase in the frequency, but also increase in the severity, until I would live with it constantly as I am now.  Yes, I still remember….

Welcome everyone to another post of ‘My Brain Lesion and Me’.  For those readers just joining me, I am taking part in WEGO Health Activist Writer’s Month Challenge in which I am writing a brand new blog post everyday throughout April, based upon prompts given by WEGO Health.  Today’s prompt reads as follows:

The First Time I…Write a post about the first time you did something?  What is it?  What was it like?  What did you learn from it?

Well, on first thoughts I was going to write about the first time I went to University, but as I have already written about that during a previous post I decided against it.  Instead I have decided to change the challenge a little bit and write about the first time I ‘experienced’ a dizzy spell.

At the time of my very first dizzy spell, I was around the age of 8, and it must have been around November or December as I distinctly remember that during the time the dizziness first started the school was busy with preparations and rehearsals for the annual Christmas Play.

Anyway, the very first attack of the dizziness occurred whilst on a shopping trip at a local DIY store with my parents, looking for new wallpaper for the living room.  We were walking around the large, imposing store and out of the blue with no warning, I became incredibly dizzy, as if the room was spinning out of control around me, as if at any moment if I didn’t hold onto something quickly I would fall, and so I quickly grabbed and held on tight to my Mum’s hand to stop by body from collapsing.  Obviously at the time I was very young, and had no clue as to what was happening to me, so my first instinct was to panic, it felt as if all the air in the store had vanished, and I was unable to breathe, my mouth became very dry and felt as if I was no longer able to swallow.  My vision became disturbed – became blurry and was unable to focus on any visual clues around me, adding to the panic I was experiencing.

After what seemed like an eternity, we left the store, and being able to sit down in the car, felt like a huge relief, although the dizziness still continued for a while longer, but felt much safer sitting down, knowing that I wasn’t able to fall.

And that was the beginning of the dizziness, which gradually became worse, more frequent and intense until it became a constant in my life around a year ago, the dizziness with me 24/7.

Someone recently told me, it was important to get my story out there,  especially as the majority of what is written about dizziness and vertigo discusses it being very much a symptom amongst the elderly, and so is important to make it clear it is something that can occur at any age.  When it first started with me, with the exception of being sent for some blood tests, the dizziness was very much brushed under the carpet instead it being blamed upon psychological factors such as anxiety, instead of being referred to more specialised doctors for further testing.  Dizziness isn’t something that should be ignored, and whatever the age of the person complaining of the symptom it should be taking seriously and investigated until everything has been ruled out.   Believe me, it isn;t a nice symptom to live with, and can at times be totally debilitating.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed the post, and able to adequately describe the dizziness and what it was like when it happened.  Please feel free to leave any comments and thoughts, I also appreciate any comments made…

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