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Sheryl from A Chronic Voice, as well as sharing her own stories and lessons with chronic illness. Sheryl is an excellent support to other bloggers and writers living with illness and chronic pain. One such way is through monthly link-up parties whereby bloggers and writers share their stories through given prompts. In December, I have written what the world learnt about chronic illness in 2020 because of the coronavirus pandemic.

What, a terrible year 2020 has been for us all.

A year that started with so much promise quickly descended into chaos. And becoming a year that will negatively impact so many. Never could we have imagined that within the first few weeks of the new year, a virus would sweep across the world, resulting in a pandemic that would disrupt life as we knew it.

2020 was the year of the pandemic as coronavirus swept around the world. It was also a year in which the world learnt about living with a chronic illness – photo by Anna Shvets from Pexels.
"What a terrible year 2020 has been for us all. A year that started with so much promise quickly descended into chaos. And becoming a year that will negatively impact so many." Click To Tweet

As we watched the news, night after night, with horror, we witnessed the death toll rising; every statistic representing a family grieving a loved one taken by this cruel and relentless virus. But the virus did not only affect those who lost a loved one because of it, or those unlucky enough to contract it but affected us all.

A Pandemic and A Lockdown

For months we did as the government asked and stayed at home, leaving the house only if necessary. Many began working from home, and parents became teachers as schools shut its doors. Nights outs were swapped for nights in binge-watching the latest offering from our favourite streaming services. Our movements became restricted as the virus continued to spread And we were all forced to adapt to a ‘new normal.’

As the pandemic worsened lockdowns became enforced as the world was forced to close non-essential shops, hospitality establishments and so on

However, for those living with chronic illness, much of what everyone was experiencing was already normal. And for us, 2020 became the year when the world learnt about life with chronic illness.

"For those living with chronic illness, much of what everyone was experiencing was already normal. And for us, 2020 became the year when the world learnt about life with chronic illness." Click To Tweet

What The World Learnt About Chronic Illness In 2020

Living With Constant Uncertainty is Exhausting and Overwhelming

When living with a chronic illness, uncertainty becomes closely tied alongside the new title tethered forevermore to your existence. One of the harder aspects of dealing with a chronic illness is the fear of the unknown. Life becomes entirely uncertain. Plans are uncertain as we struggle to grasp how we will feel from day-to-day and making it difficult to commit to anything. The symptoms that accompany illness are also uncertain, never knowing when they will next appear; or whether they will improve or worsen over time.

"One of the harder aspects of dealing with a chronic illness is the fear of the unknown. Life becomes entirely uncertain. Plans are uncertain as we struggle to grasp how we will feel from day-to-day." Click To Tweet
Uncertainty is something that is deeply familiar for those living with chronic illness, but it has also been something that has been felt throughout the world as the pandemic caused a great deal of it – photo by Josh Hild from Pexels

The current COVID-19 pandemic has created a deep sense of uncertainty and fear that many have experienced because of it. Uncertainty has raised questions including how long will it last, and whether life will ever return to normal. And such questions are ones we have asked after a diagnosis of a chronic illness. These worries and the uncertainty regarding job security and finances have been exhausting and overwhelming for everyone during the pandemic. Many people have reported feelings of depression and anxiety during these events, especially with the recurring lockdowns.

"Uncertainty has raised questions including how long will it last, and whether life will ever return to normal. And such questions are ones we have asked after a diagnosis of a chronic illness." Click To Tweet

As a result, 2020 has been the year when the world realised how living with constant uncertainty is exhausting and difficult.

Constantly Being at Home Is Neither Nice Nor Exciting

As well as the extremely overused question of, “How are you?” another question often asked is “So, what do you do?” A question that many living with a chronic illness dreads as many of us have to explain why we are unable to work. Instead of encountering judgmental comments, many reply on how enjoyable and exciting it must be to spend so much time at home.

In truth, days are spent behind closed doors enduring excruciating pain and other such horrible symptoms. But it is not just the accompanying symptoms of chronic illness that makes constant days at home difficult and anything but enjoyable and exciting. The difficulty also lies in the monotony and boredom of days spent in bed. And as pleasurable it may sound to watch as much Netflix as time allows, it soon becomes tedious and tiresome.

As the lockdown continued for several months, and we all stayed at home, the world learns that it is not a treat or exciting being confined – photo by Matthias Groeneveld from Pexels.
"But it is not just the accompanying symptoms of chronic illness that makes constant days at home difficult and anything but enjoyable and exciting. The difficulty also lies in the monotony and boredom of days spent in bed." Click To Tweet

But many people reported struggling with the confinement inside the same four walls during the lockdown. Many cried that they had enough of binge-watching entire seasons of whatever show became the latest obsession. Many wished for the pandemic’s quick ending, and subsequent lockdown so we could all return to normality. And so they finally appreciated that so much time at home is neither nice nor exciting but rather boring and monotonous.

"Many wished for the pandemic's quick ending, and subsequent lockdown so we could all return to normality. And so they finally appreciated that so much time at home is neither nice nor exciting but rather boring and monotonous." Click To Tweet

A Year of Very Little Socialising and a Case of Not Going Out

For those living with chronic illness, a popular meme exists which has become popular on social media. It is one that reads ‘The Bins Go Out More Than I Do.’ During 2020, however, it became a meme that I have seen shared countless of time and nor just by the chronically ill community. For the course of the lockdowns, the reality for the majority was this very predicament.

The reality of living with a chronic illness means that cancelled plans or the feeling of not being able to do what you’d really like to becomes the norm. There exists grief of feeling as if you are missing out on your life. As well as constantly needing to grieve the time you have lost or everything you have missed out on.

"Much of the world felt loneliness and isolation during the pandemic and recurrent lockdowns. Many have experienced pain and grief over cancelled plans and unable to see friends and family." Click To Tweet

Much of the world felt loneliness and isolation during the pandemic and recurrent lockdowns. Many have experienced pain and grief over cancelled plans and unable to see friends and family. Or the intense frustration of being unable to do what you want. All of which are too familiar for those living with chronic illness and will continue long after the pandemic has ended.

A Time of Indulging In Social Media and Telecommunication

When living with a chronic illness and experiencing intense, debilitating symptoms, it isn’t easy to visit friends and family. Long days and nights spent alone with only symptoms for company, still yearning for social contact.

Computers were used a lot during this year for keeping in touch with friends and family with frequent Zoom calls! But the world now knows it’s not a substitute for a physical hug!

Many assume that those living with chronic illness can utilise social media and telecommunication services to keep in touch with friends. And that modern technology is a favourable substitute in favour of face-to-face contact.

"Many assume that those living with chronic illness can utilise social media and telecommunication services to keep in touch with friends. And that modern technology is a favourable substitute in favour of face-to-face contact." Click To Tweet

With months and months of only being able to keep in contact with loved ones via FaceTime or Zoom the world has now realised that social media interactions are not the same as face to face interactions. And never again will people underestimate the power of a physical hug from loved ones.

Anxiety Rearing Its Head When Cutting The Ties of Isolation

From living with a chronic illness, I know that isolation is hard going, but so is escaping it. When becoming ill, or experiencing a serious flare, in many ways normality stops. There is no going out. My world consists of nothing but my bed, the comfortable sofa in the living room (when I can reach it) and my thoughts. There is only knowledge of how excruciating the pain has become or the intensity of other such abhorrent symptoms.

"When becoming ill, or experiencing a serious flare, in many ways normality stops. There is no going out. My world consists of nothing but my bed, or the comfortable sofa in the living room and my thoughts." Click To Tweet

When the flare subsides, and your body is now allowing you the chance to go out once again, the wonder of the outside world is mixed with terror. Suddenly, going outside and doing things you once did evokes anxiety and worry. It’s as if I have landed on a different planet, everything different and threatening. After being confined for so long, it can feel like you will die when leaving the safety of home. You are not, of course, and you begin to breathe slowly, reminding yourself that this is something you used to do all the time.

Many have reported feeling anxious and worried when the lockdowns have eased, and we have been able to return to some normality. Crowds of people suddenly threatening in a way that it never had before. The anxiety we feel because of chronic illness, and theirs is not the same, however. One occurs due to a sickness that already exists, the worry of exacerbating it and becoming worse. The other exists as a result of avoiding becoming ill, the fear of coronavirus affecting so many.

"Many have reported feeling anxious and worried when the lockdowns have eased, and we have been able to return to some normality. Crowds of people suddenly threatening in a way that it never had before." Click To Tweet

In many ways, 2020 has blurred the lines between the healthy and sick. We have all become a little housebound, missing the normality of our old lives. And the fear that we may never regain normalcy again. It has been a year in which the world learnt a lot about life with chronic illness. Let’s hope they remember the lessons.

"In many ways, 2020 has blurred the lines between the healthy and sick. We have all become a little housebound, missing the normality of our old lives. And the fear that we may never regain normalcy again." Click To Tweet

Sheryl from A Chronic Voice, as well as sharing her own stories and lessons with chronic illness. Sheryl is an excellent support to other bloggers and writers living with illness and chronic pain. One such way is through monthly link-up parties, whereby bloggers and writers share their stories through given prompts.  It would be remiss of me not to use this month to discuss the ongoing Coronavirus pandemic through the eyes of someone living with a chronic illness— a topic that is affecting everybody, and not just those living with long-term health conditions.

Just like with any start of a brand new year, 2020 promised hope and endless possibilities. However, little did we imagine that instead, it would bring a worldwide pandemic and irrevocably change the way we live our lives.  

Sign reading 'World: The World Is Temporarily Closed'
Who could have imagined at the start of 2020, much of the world would become closed due to a pandemic? Photo by Edwin Hooper on Unsplash

At the time of writing this blog post, much of the world is in lockdown. The UK government even extending ours by at least another three weeks. Our movements have become severely restricted.  Our lives and our worlds becoming increasingly smaller.  Who knew that life could change so dramatically in the blink of an eye?

Strange Time For Many But For The Few, It Feels Like Returning to Normal

Well, those living with chronic illness are all too familiar that life can change so dramatically, so quickly.  Illness, an evil and malevolent force, often enters the lives of its victims, so abruptly and with no warning,  It leaves behind chaos and destruction, and as such, life will never be the same. 

Those living with chronic illness are all too familiar that life can change so dramatically, so quickly. Everyone is experiencing many of the grief and feelings those with chronic illness goes through after diagnosis.
"Illness, an evil and malevolent force, often enters the lives of its victims, so abruptly and with no warning,  It leaves behind chaos and destruction, and as such, life will never be the same." Click To Tweet

Currently, for many, these times seem strange and peculiar. But for those living with chronic illness, it often feels like a returning to normal. For us, our lives and our worlds already feel small, so small that it often feels claustrophobic.  The isolation endured by many at this moment in time is often the norm for those living with chronic illness.

"For us, our lives and our worlds already feel small, so small that it often feels claustrophobic.  The isolation being endured by many is often the norms for those of us who live with chronic illness." Click To Tweet

The world is experiencing a loss of freedom; unable to move freely.  And a loss of the freedom to plan. Collectively we are all experiencing grief, anxiety and overwhelming uncertainty. All of which are hallmarks of what it is to live with a chronic illness.  

Window covered with bars
When living with chronic illness our homes can often feel like a prison; a place where we are confined with debilitating symptoms. During the lockdown, everyone is experiencing the feeling of being imprisoned. Photo by Denny Müller on Unsplash

Everyone is currently experiencing confinement within the same four walls day in and day out, with little reprieve to the outside world. A scenario which is all too familiar for those living with chronic illness as persistent, debilitating symptoms often imprison us behind those same four walls. And where nights and days blur together.  Once, it was due to severe, and disabling symptoms, and now due to COVID-19. 

"Everyone is currently experiencing confinement within the same four walls day in and day out, with little reprieve to the outside world. A scenario which is all too familiar for those living with chronic illness." Click To Tweet

It seems that everyone is experiencing a small slice of what it is to live with our truth. 

Distancing From Thoughts of The Future

Of course, discussions have begun regarding the future, and how and when the current lockdown will end. And although all of us wish to reclaim life as we know it, and return to normality, there is also an element of anxiety, especially for those living with chronic illness. 

Our lives with chronic illness have become currently impacted in ways that are yet to be determined.

Our lives with chronic illness have become impacted in ways that are yet to be determined. The lockdown has meant the cancellation or postponement of essential medical appointments.  Those living with chronic illness now have no access to therapies that help ease the disabling symptoms or which help reduce the number of debilitating flares. So, currently, there is a real fear of an uncontrollable flare or a real setback to progress that we had previously made. 

"Our lives with chronic illness have become currently impacted in ways that are yet to be determined. There is a real fear of an uncontrollable flare or a real setback to progress that we had previously made. Click To Tweet

Before, the lockdown, because of increased falls and deterioration in other symptoms, I lost confidence in going out. Now, with the inability to go out, and regaining that lost confidence, I fear that it will make the situation worse. I fear that my confidence will take a further hit, making going out even harder.  

The Pandemic and Subsequent Lockdown Is Stressing Everybody

Living with chronic illness, or not everybody’s lives and futures are entirely uncertain. And with all this uncertainty, it is reasonable for all of us to be feeling stressed and anxious.

There is much uncertainty regarding the future, and how and when the lockdown will be lifted, and allowing us to return to normality. As such, many are fearful and stressed. Photo by Tonik on Unsplash.
"Living with chronic illness, or not everybody's lives and futures are entirely uncertain. And with all this uncertainty, it is reasonable for all of us to be feeling stressed and anxious." Click To Tweet

Although living with uncertainty isn’t new when living with chronic illness, it does not mean that the pandemic and lockdown is any more tolerable for us to manage.  We’re adding the stress of living with the Coronavirus situation along with the burden of trying to control a chronic health condition. 

Perhaps the Pandemic Will Lead to Better Understanding of The Difficulties Faced By Those Living With Chronic Illness

When diagnosed with chronic illness, there come waves of grief, sadness, anger, loss, fear, and uncertainty as we grapple with the changes that illness induces. And as the world is coming to terms with these changes, everyone is experiencing the same emotions.  We are no longer alone in our grief. 

The discomforts faced every day by those living with chronic illness, are being felt all around the world.

The discomforts faced every day by those living with chronic illness, are being felt all around the world. Ordinarily, there are no feelings of solidarity, and being ‘in this together’ as there is now.  At this moment in time, we are all attempting to navigate and cope with this reality.

"Ordinarily, there are no feelings of solidarity, and being 'in this together' as there is now.  At this moment in time, we are all attempting to navigate and cope with this reality." Click To Tweet

We can only hope that after the end of this pandemic, there will be more understanding and empathy regarding the difficulties faced for those living with chronic illness. So often, people comment on how nice it must be to spend so much time at home.  Now, that they too are experiencing this phenomenon, perhaps they will realise how difficult it can be. 

"We can only hope that after the end of this pandemic, there will be more understanding and empathy regarding the difficulties faced for those living with chronic illness." Click To Tweet

Celebrating Not Missing Out

Like when going through any difficult time, I believe it is vital to see the silver lining.  To cope, therefore, it is crucial to look for the positives in a challenging situation.  

Those who are disabled or chronically ill are enjoying the accessibility that the internet provides by allowing to watch new film releases and exclusive concerts and gigs during this lockdown. Photo by bongkarn thanyakij from Pexels.

Throughout the lockdown, I find it a comfort that as everyone is in the same position, I am no longer missing out on anything. Because when living with a chronic illness, you tend to miss out a lot. Missed parties, celebrations, and lots of cancelled plans are the norm due to persistent, debilitating symptoms. But now, as the lockdown continues, we are all imposition with missing out.

"Throughout the lockdown, I find it a comfort that as everyone is in the same position, I am no longer missing out on anything. As the lockdown continues, we are all imposition with missing out." Click To Tweet

In truth, this lockdown has allowed us to engage in our interests, in ways that hadn’t previously been available. As someone affected by severe and debilitating symptoms, I am unable to attend concerts and gigs. The cinema, with its high ceilings, is somewhere else that I find it challenging to visit. A deep shame, as a person who very much enjoys films. The lockdown, however, has allowed me to watch new releases from home, as cinemas remain closed. I have also enjoyed some of my favourite artists perform from their own homes, from the comfort of mine.

For me, one of the silver linings of the pandemic and the subsequent lockdown has how accessible the world has become.  For those of us living with chronic illness and disability, we hope that it continues even after normality has resumed. 

"One of the silver linings of the pandemic and the subsequent lockdown has how accessible the world has become. We hope that it continues even after normality has resumed." Click To Tweet

What has been your experience of the lockdown and self-isolation? Leave your thoughts below

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